11 May #HappyBirthdayMom
The idyllic days of summer, the endless hours on our sides and so many plans that we made.
Just as another summer rolls around I feel sad as I think of all those lazy, loving, long days we had spent so many years ago.
Where has the time sped away, it flies as I try to hold on?
Faster and faster as I find myself busy and busier.
Busy with life, busy with work.
Busy sometimes since I am and making myself busy coz I have so much time.
Where am I struck, where are you stuck?
Why do we not find the time to just relax?
I yearn for those moments that seemed endless, filled with you love and care.
Those lovely, simple days filled with your presence.
I am a grown up but I miss myself, I go looking for her trying to reminisce.
More than myself I look for you, I feel the absence so much more when I sense you in myself.
Is this what I miss?
What have I become?
Is this what I want to feel as I try to find you within me?
You are here, you are near, never so far yet so far.
Distance is of the mind, never of the heart yet this distance seems endless, you so far.
I miss you, I miss our chats, the nonsensical chatter.
The inconsequential banter and long different, difficult discussions.
Yes, I miss you.
So near yet so far.
Time is mercurial, it is just slipping away.
I can feel it just running away.
I see you and yet I miss you.
We are not the same yet I feel the same.
I miss the safe snuggle that always cheered me up.
I miss you just for me and just for you.
I miss you for just the way we were when we never missed each other.
I miss you.
I just miss you.
I just think of you and then I don’t miss you so much.
I love you, just love you.
All my love, always.
Happy Birthday, Mom!
Today, May 11 is my mother’s birthday and this is my message of love for her.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MOM!